"The Biggest Star In My life"

          

          

        In my life, there are times where I felt so alone, like walking on a cold dark road. A road that I can't even see the end of. Like my life keeps on turning and pulling me down on the edge of a mountain, and that it is full of darkness and it seeps right through me, making me absorb it unintendedly. Ever since I was a kid, there were people asking me about my gender, how I speak, how I move, and how I distance myself from other people. It keeps on running inside my mind until now that I started questioning myself. "Do I deserve this? Am I not worthy? What is my purpose?" Those are the questions I can't answer. I'm always trembling in confusion and fear. During my elementary days, I want to become Seaman. I want to sail all over the world and work hard so that I can help my mom and dad and my family to have a better life. Then in high school, I have been bullied a lot of times again because of my personality. And the most heartbreaking part was when my family is the one judging me. After those circumstances, I found a reason to believe in myself and that I can do anything if I have that hope inside of my heart.

           I have a Values education teacher who graduated with a Bachelor of Science in Psychology. She is Marites Dulay. She touched the heart of her students from the past and even in the present time. She is the first teacher who witnessed and valued my skills and capabilities. She inspired me a lot and she is the reason why I want to pursue this course. She taught me how to be grateful even for the smallest things, and be courageous even if the big waves in our lives start to swallow our boat. When I was choosing my academic strand, I chose Humanities and Social Sciences strand because I want to become a Psychologist. I want to help people suffering from mental health problems, I want them to feel that they are not alone and that we are not walking on cold and empty roads. I want them to look at the past ahead than what they're currently seeing to see that it isn't the end. That there are greater things through it. We just can't see yet because we're too blinded by our problems. In life, we are walking on a road for us to see the beauty of life and the essence of making difference. I know that it's hard to follow my dreams but these dreams will lead me to success and victory in life. 

          This will be my greatest comeback from those people who belittled me before. I want to show that in life, you don't need to become powerful through riches and authority for you to have the success you want but instead I will show them that being empowered through riches in knowledge and strength mentally and physically is what makes you powerful. I want to become a psychologist so that I can help those people who want to have peace of mind and a life worth living. That in this life all of our emotions are valid, and our life is worth fighting for. A life that should be cherished until the end of time. I want to make a difference that having mental health issues and problems is not wrong. It's normal and that is part of our lives, and the best thing we can do to remove this problem is to seek professional services from professional people who master this field of human behavior. The relevance of Psychologists and psychiatrists in the world is very important. Humans tend to feel self-pity, anxiety, depression, and other mental health problems. We need to empower this field so that many people will be able to showcase their talents, skills, and abilities so that we are all free to become the best version of ourselves. There are relevant jobs that we can get after we pursue a BS degree in Psychology, and some of these are Clinical psychologist, Counseling psychologist, Education on the mental health practitioner, Occupational Psychology, and Human resource officer. 

         With this in mind, I am sure that my life will be exciting if I finished my study. I will be able to start helping other people to deal with their mental problems and help them develop for a brighter future. This is a course that opens a lot of opportunities to become the best version of ourselves. Having a healthy mind can lead to a better life. These are the reasons why I feel I am part of this course. I am always curious about anything, and I always observe and listen to what's happening around me before I give reactions or comments about certain happenings. In my circle of friends, I am the one who always advises my friends, and I love listening to them and the stories of other people. I feel like I am trustworthy because they can share with me their problems, struggles, and sorrow in life. A psychologist needs to have great communication skills, which is why I choose the Humanities and Social Sciences strand to develop and improve my speaking and communication skills. So that when the right time comes, I am ready and prepared for what will happen in the future. I tend to judge people before but after I take this strand and the DISS and DIASS subjects back in grade 11, I realized that understanding people's attitudes and behavior is much better than judging them so easily. I learned to observe and assess in myself what kind of person I am dealing with or if this person is having a hard time finding their self. That's why they were acting weird or something. I learned that we all have a difference. If we want to fix this world, then we must fix ourselves. And when I become a psychologist I will make sure to uplift the lives of those people suffering from sadness, pain, anxiety, depression, and other mental health problems that can be solved by being a professional psychologist.